Some days, we just have one of those days. Today is one of those days. Not sure what to do with myself, shedding a few tears, eating, bathing, sitting out in the sun, tearing pages from National Geographic , looking forward to nightfall and my new favorite BBC series, Scott & Bailey .
Meantime, I’ll share a poem that resonated:
Personal by Tony Hoagland
Don’t take it personal, they said:
but I did, I took it quite personal—-
the breeze and the river and the color of the fields :
the price of grapefruit and stamps,
the wet hair of women in the rain—
And I cursed what hurt me
and I praised what gave me joy,
the most simple-minded of possible responses.
The government reminded me of my father,
with it’s deafness and its laws,
and the weather reminded me of my mom,
with her tropical squalls.
Enjoy it while you can, they said of Happiness
Think first, they said of Talk
Get over it, they said
at the School of Broken Hearts
but I couldn’t and I didn’t and I don’t
believe in the clean break;
I believe in the compound fracture
served with a sauce of dirty regret,
I believe in saying it all
and taking it all back
and saying it again for good measure
while the air fills up with I’m-Sorries
like wheeling birds
and the trees look seasick in the wind.
Oh life! Can you blame me
for making a scene?
You were the yellow caboose, the moon
disappearing over a ridge of a cloud.
I was the dog, chained in some fool’s backyard;
barking and barking:
trying to convince everything else
to take it personal too.
I love Tony Hoagland. I was sad to see when he died last year. Eventually we should get together and catch up and talk about the group. I am Just in a parallel reality (like so many others) and i am not making myself do anything. Sending you a hug.
Trish DeJohn
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Big hug back at ya. Parallel reality is a good word for it. Many days, I just want to be silent. I took a 3 hour nap today from 4PM-7PM with the most vivid emotional dream. I think I was in a parallel universe. Go easy,
Love, Frances
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