Quick check-in

Made it to Montana. Wendy picked me up at the airport. She and I picked up where we left off and then some.
Montana is so green right now. Can’t wait to get out and enjoy it.
Now to give the dolphin some attention and love. Just made an appointment to have her looked over at the RV place next Wednesday. Guess the receptionist thinks I’m a sweetheart, since she called me that numerous times.

Saw this event for Tuesday, June 16th with Stacey Abrams. I know I’d love to hear what she has to say.
Our Time is Now: Power, Purpose, and the Fight for a Fair America
Stacey Abrams, author event

Personal injustices

This fight for justice and black lives matter has certainly brought up personal injustices. Due to my own irrational reactions to some of the injustices in my life, I have lost a great deal. I stayed in a marriage much too long, actually should have never married in the first place. But from where I come from it is important for a woman to be married, otherwise what will become of her and who will take care of her. Sound archaic? It is, but it isn’t.

I married a man who had proven he was capable of infidelity, had proven he lost money for his employer because wasn’t doing his job and was a sexual deviant. But he was such a nice guy. I take full responsibility for the choice I made. Unfortunately, I had a lot of buried anger. I drank to deal with it. After two infidelities in our marriage, he begged for my forgiveness. But the hurt always crept up. I asked for a separation. Once the divorce was under way, somehow he managed to convince some that I was breaking up our family. I made poor choices and ended up looking like the “crazy” person.

That was an injustice I wasn’t capable of fighting at the time. I was still drinking. Now I have a clearer mind from not drinking for several years now. I will put my clear mind to good use.

Thanks for listening, just had to get that out.

 

The Fight for Justice

Well the quiet and rest was nice for awhile. That’s how I have spent most of this quarantine time, resting. But everything is picking up for me. This time is such an opportunity to fight for justice and I don’t want to miss it. There is a lot to read, movies to watch in order to educate, talk with the black community, protest, research how to bring justice and break down a corrupt system.

Last night I watched an excellent documentary on the sovereignty commission based in Mississippi during the 50’s and 60’s. It was the largest spy operation in the US before 9/11 with a mission to keep blacks and whites segregated. I was just a babe and had no idea all this was happening. Highly recommend, Spies of Mississippi, streaming for free on Amazon, may be on PBS as well.

Looking for a place to make a donation with this fight for justice as their goal, consider,

Southern Poverty Law Center

Questions I wish I’d asked

My writing group is writing in the form of list. One of our prompts today is:

Questions I wish I’d asked my departed ones but didn’t

Elizabeth,

Where were you raised?

How many siblings do you have?

Is that white uniform uncomfortable?

Tell me about your parents, about your childhood.

Who takes care of your daughter while you are taking care of me?

Where did you learn to cook all the delicious food you cook for my family?

How much do my parents pay you?

How much is the bus fare to get to our house?

Which church do you go to?

What’s it like to witness all that goes on in our household?

Can I come over to your house sometime?

Elizabeth, do you know I love you very much?

 

Justice for Big Floyd

Wow, there is a lot to stand up to and for these days. Racism, police reform, gun control, electing a good leader and staying healthy are just a few.
My own laziness is coming to an end. Where do we begin, how can we help. I’m going to start small, with a goal to do at least on thing a day to bring reform. Make a call to officials, sign a petition, walk in a rally, write postcards to promote voter registration in suppressed areas, check in on my black friends, watch a movie, ( If Beale Street Could Talk ) to educate and put myself in other’s shoes or read a book, listen to a podcast for the same purpose.

Today, I have signed the petition, Justice for Big Floyd , care to join me?

They see me but I don’t see them

This morning, my friend K Lynn had a request. It was prefaced with how hard it was to ask. She asked if I could be on her list of people to call when she is scared for her life. She doesn’t feel safe out in the world. She is black. Her vulnerability and sharing brought me to a whole new level of understanding. The ramifications of yesterday’s events  in NYC central park, Central Park incident , and Minneapolis George Floyd incident , bring up lifetimes of pain and injustice.
KL is beautiful, smart, funny and strong. Some of my better healing belly laughs have happened with her. Those characteristics are missed by some because of her color.

She explained, they see me, but I don’t see them. I don’t know which policeman is racist and which is not, which grocery store clerk is or isn’t, if the paramedic who is called if I am having an emergency is or isn’t.  “They see me, but I don’t see them.”

So yes, I will be on her call list. I will stand up for injustice when I witness it and otherwise.

I share this conversation with her permission.

Petition to arrest police who took George Floyd’s life

Real love

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This picture came up as a memory today. Elizabeth has been at the forefront of my mind lately. She raised me from infancy until 6 years of age. We had the days to ourselves in the midst of a chaotic, dysfunctional family. I was the youngest of 4 and there were 7 years difference between me and the next sibling.
Once everyone was off to school and work, she put me on the kitchen counter, served me toast with honey and coffee with cream and sugar. (I’m drinking my coffee with cream and sugar as I write this) I was content as she went about cleaning the kitchen. I was her side kick all day. Life was peaceful and full of love during our hours together.
A friend of mine is doing ancestry.com. I asked her to look Elizabeth up. After no avail, I am going to start my own research on her background. She is who I am interested in. The woman who loved me, sacrificed time with her own daughter and gracefully put on a white uniform, got on the bus and arrived at our house to help make it appear beautiful on the inside and out.
I already know my grandfathers on both sides were corrupt. My maternal grandfather was director of war bonds under President Taft. My paternal grandfather became sheriff in the south during prohibition. He had a check on his desk the day he went into office from the bootleggers.  No pride in that.
I’ll let you know what I find out.

Support artists and local

I keep hearing of people wanting to find ways to help out. Blood can be donated, I did that. Word has it they have a surplus supply because people are giving blood and not much need for it right now. Staying home is a way to help, but not very satisfying.

There are some excellent artist and local businesses that could use our support. Here’s a list of some dear to my heart in Oregon and Montana mainly.

Tsunami Books – local bookstore in Eugene, order and pickup available.

Also, features Annie Heron ceramics.  Annie sells at Tsunami and also through her website.

Joule Art – Terry McIlrath’s paintings, prints and cards. Birthday cards and more

Susan Carlson – amazing mixed media artist from Missoula, MT.

Lee Rizzo, go fund me album – beautiful singer, song writer.

PenFelt – Lebrie Rich, duchess of felt, offers felt art, workshops and recently face mask. Need a felting project, check out felting kits, Mushroom felting kit

Sweet Life Bakery – Sisters, Catherine and Cheryl, create artistic baked goods and employ locals. Craving a cookie and expresso, open and following sanitation guideline

Paula Jeans Garden – from Paradise Montana, Paula’s lavendar creations are magical.

Steven Begleiter Photography – award winning photographer, also publishes instructional photography books.

To be expanded upon. Feel free to add any of your favorites in the comments and I’ll add them to post.

Susan Carlson’s mixed media:

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