Personal injustices

This fight for justice and black lives matter has certainly brought up personal injustices. Due to my own irrational reactions to some of the injustices in my life, I have lost a great deal. I stayed in a marriage much too long, actually should have never married in the first place. But from where I come from it is important for a woman to be married, otherwise what will become of her and who will take care of her. Sound archaic? It is, but it isn’t.

I married a man who had proven he was capable of infidelity, had proven he lost money for his employer because wasn’t doing his job and was a sexual deviant. But he was such a nice guy. I take full responsibility for the choice I made. Unfortunately, I had a lot of buried anger. I drank to deal with it. After two infidelities in our marriage, he begged for my forgiveness. But the hurt always crept up. I asked for a separation. Once the divorce was under way, somehow he managed to convince some that I was breaking up our family. I made poor choices and ended up looking like the “crazy” person.

That was an injustice I wasn’t capable of fighting at the time. I was still drinking. Now I have a clearer mind from not drinking for several years now. I will put my clear mind to good use.

Thanks for listening, just had to get that out.