The sun is shining. I have view of Mount Sentinel which sits east of Missoula just up from the University of Montana. A few years ago, I would have been able to see the “M” which is about 3/4 of the way up the mountain. Residents and visitors alike enjoy hiking the zigzag trail for exercise with the grand view of Missoula valley as the reward once you reach the “M”. However, growth is blocking that view today. Stockman’s Bank built a six story building in 2015 obscuring many views in Missoula. I don’t know what the height restrictions are in this city. I began to research and there is much to read, so I’ll continue that later. Missoula is growing and it saddens me. The rising cost of housing, increased traffic and the slick expensive boutiques that sell a a polished cosmopolitan look are taking away some of the Missoula magic that I discovered back in the eighties when I first moved here. But I still love it and it is where I feel most at home, always have.
Mount Sentinel jutes up and serves as a guard, one I have often looked to for grounding, helping me find my way, even as I run errands and need to know what direction I am going. On clear warm days, hang gliders, that look like fairies, fly off the mountain, floating through the air. It’s that kind of day and just spotted the first one of the day.
Some of the folks sitting in the same room as I are getting their chemo. I am here to get an iron transfusion. My ferritin levels continue to be low. That explains lack of energy. Some days I physically don’t feel like lifting a pen to paper or click at the keyboard. When you wake up after a ten, sometimes twelve hours sleep and your tired, something is off.
Why are my ferritin levels low? That is the unknown. My hematologist would like me to get a colonoscopy sooner than later to rule out the dreaded but she said it so it’s somewhere in the back of brain sometimes, colon cancer. Yea I don’t want to go there, but I will get it checked out. The gastro doctors are backed up so the appointment to consult with the gastro doc isn’t until the end of May, then schedule the colonoscopy.
For today, I’ll sit back and enjoy the view, feel the protection of Mount Sentinel and delight in the fairies flying off of it.
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Slaying dragons in your sleep
Pressing question: Do you ever wake up, your covers are strewn all over the place? Do you wonder, what dragons did you slay in your sleep last night? Are they gone now?
Lately, that’s been the case. In fact, I’ve tucked blankets in tight and it still happens.
A couple of months ago, the doc had me wear a monitor on my finger at home while I slept. The reading did show I am not breathing well in my sleep, not getting good oxygen. Hence, maybe that’s why I’m a lazy daytime person. I often feel like I want to go back to sleep during the day. A follow appointment with a sleep doctor is coming up in a couple of weeks. Probably need a Cpap machine. Hey, if it gives me better sleep and more energy why not.
I’ve alway prided myself on being a good sleeper and feel for those who can’t get to sleep or wake up at all hours unable to get back to sleep. I’m sleeping but sometimes that is all I want to do. Yes, I am content, more so than I have been in a long time. So it’s not a depression or anxiety. It does feel like possible oxygen deprivation. Curious where the doc will go with this and if energy will be revived.
Woke up thinking about sleep today. Hope you slept well. Time for a nap!
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