Foot propped up.

Just hanging out with my foot propped up. Surgery went well last Thursday, the tendon is repaired. Wendy is taking such good care of me and we are eating well. Will have 6 weeks of no weight on this foot. The good news is I have one of those scooters and it has a basket! Last night I watched, The Shape of Water . Was skeptical in the beginning. Today, I realize it is sticking with me as I think of the beauty of it. The sun is shining today, we will plant seeds in the garden. I can sit on the deck and plant in pots.

Next week I have a cat/house sit near the University for most of May. It would be lovely to have visitors if you are in the area. I’m in inquiry each day as to what may come next, staying open and trusting.

My grandchildren turned 4 on Sunday, Earth Day. I sent them big kisses and hugs from afar.



The journey continues

Got to my friend, Wendy’s last night. Slept hard and slept in.

I highly recommend a visit to Lava Hot Springs and Riverside Inn is a step back in time place to stay, with hot springs in the hotel as well as a good restaurant. The town of Lava Hot Springs has a population of just over 400 people. Since I was sick, it was such a comfort to be there, soak, eat and rest. It was my last and perfect last place to stay on this journey. Especially after the diametric stay in Las Vegas at the Tropicana It had been over 20 years since my last visit to Las Vegas. At that time, it was a great, cheap and fun stop over on a road trip. Not anymore, hotels are expensive, the food was outrageously expensive and the coffee I ordered in the morning tasted like warm water. So in my book, Las Vegas is a total rip off. Yes, I played some of the slot machines and won nothing.

I’m thankful for the opportunity to have had this journey. Thankful for some of the new friends I made, to have made the journey safely and that my nephew and I  learned that this not the time for me to move there and we still love each other. And who knows. I certainly don’t. What’s next?! Well, I’ll have this ankle surgery, use the 6 weeks of recovery time to job hunt and contemplate what might be the next best thing. I plan to look for opportunities in Missoula and Eugene at least.

The title of this blog stemmed from a year and half of being in shock from the lose of my relationship with my daughter and grandchildren and after attempts to make amends with no response while being blocked from her email, phone, etc. Hence, “fuck it”.  In spite of trying on this title, I still care. The grief over a person who is still alive is complicated, many layered and full of unresolve. It’s with me everyday, not as intensely. I still dream of a miracle. Meantime, the journey continues.

Back in the USA

Crossed the border day a couple of days ago. Had a night in San Felipe before that for last sights of the Sea of Cortez and my favorite fish taco. The potholes before that were bad but there was a short little caravan of cars all going slow so it felt somewhat safe. Woke up in San Felipe with a sore throat, running nose, etc. I did manage to get across the border with a night in Blythe, CA, then Las Vegas. Yesterday I was feeling awful so only went a few hours to Mesquite, NV. Bought some NyQuil and slept 10 hours. Tonight, I’ll stay in Lava Hot Springs, ID for a nice soak.

See you soon Missoula.


Potholes and dirt highway coming soon!

A couple of uneventful days on the road. That’s good. Leaving Guerrero Negro soon and will be going through the pot hole section as well as 20 miles of dirt highway. Tonight, I will reward myself with a stay at The Sand Dollar in San Felipe. It was my first stay on the way down, right on the sea of Cortez. The last 2 hotels I stayed in claimed they had internet, but it didn’t work in either, hence no word from the journey. By the way, enjoying The Alice Network very much.

Talk to you soon.

Journey back

Tomorrow I start driving up Baja, making my way back to Montana. Plan to take it slow through Baja, especially where there are potholes a plenty! Learned my lesson coming down. First stop will be Loreto. It’s been a peaceful week in Pescadero. The trailer where I’m staying has been moved from the construction. No one else is here, just me and Cookie. I’ve connected and gone out with friends I’ve made here. Friday night, David Raitt, brother of Bonnie Raitt, played at Hotel California. Special guest was Peter Revira of the band, Rare Earth, a good 70’s band. I Just Want to Celebrate I also had Tres Leche Cake for the first time. Wow, what a treat. This evening going to the local story telling event. Story telling

Cookie will stay in Baja 😦 My great-niece is coming down for spring break. They will take her to Aspen. It’s not practical for me to have her when I go through surgery and 6 weeks of no weight bearing on the ankle. Hopefully, after that I will be in a position to have her again. I am missing her already.

Any suggestions for a good audio book for the trip? Treating myself to one from Audible.

Tres Leche Cake


What’s next

Our time in Missoula is coming to an end next Tuesday. But I’ll be back! Cookie was not a fan of the snow the first couple of days, now she romps around and loves it. We have been dog sitting for another puppy the same age. Hence, there has been much time for getting out and seeing people.

The MRI results show a messed up tendon in my ankle and surgery is in my future. The plan is to drive my car back up. Cookie will stay with my nephew’s family since I won’t be able to be weight bearing for 6 weeks. Yes, I’m going to miss her terribly. Realistically it wouldn’t work for me or her. The good thing is she is in the family. I will stay at my friend, Wendy’s for the summer. We’ve worked out a deal and my motorhome will be out there with all my belongings.

I hope to use my recovery time to figure out what’s next. Will need work and purpose. I hope to expand my greeting cards. The only place that has them now is the Good Food Store where they sell well. Work that involves a lot of standing will not work as there is also arthritis in both ankles that will only progress. At the end of April I will be cat sitting which will be perfect since I won’t have to walk the cats! Trusting it will come together. Yes money is getting tight. I know that Baja is not going to be the place, but never would have found that out without giving it a whirl.

I will probably leave Baja by the 18th and will give it a week to get back. Anyone wanna fly and drive back?! I will say if I find someone to drive my car back I would take advantage of it and I would fly back. Stay tuned. Thanks for reading.