The journey continues

Got to my friend, Wendy’s last night. Slept hard and slept in.

I highly recommend a visit to Lava Hot Springs and Riverside Inn is a step back in time place to stay, with hot springs in the hotel as well as a good restaurant. The town of Lava Hot Springs has a population of just over 400 people. Since I was sick, it was such a comfort to be there, soak, eat and rest. It was my last and perfect last place to stay on this journey. Especially after the diametric stay in Las Vegas at the Tropicana It had been over 20 years since my last visit to Las Vegas. At that time, it was a great, cheap and fun stop over on a road trip. Not anymore, hotels are expensive, the food was outrageously expensive and the coffee I ordered in the morning tasted like warm water. So in my book, Las Vegas is a total rip off. Yes, I played some of the slot machines and won nothing.

I’m thankful for the opportunity to have had this journey. Thankful for some of the new friends I made, to have made the journey safely and that my nephew and I  learned that this not the time for me to move there and we still love each other. And who knows. I certainly don’t. What’s next?! Well, I’ll have this ankle surgery, use the 6 weeks of recovery time to job hunt and contemplate what might be the next best thing. I plan to look for opportunities in Missoula and Eugene at least.

The title of this blog stemmed from a year and half of being in shock from the lose of my relationship with my daughter and grandchildren and after attempts to make amends with no response while being blocked from her email, phone, etc. Hence, “fuck it”.  In spite of trying on this title, I still care. The grief over a person who is still alive is complicated, many layered and full of unresolve. It’s with me everyday, not as intensely. I still dream of a miracle. Meantime, the journey continues.